Super hate being at the mercy of other people – aka how your fate to some extent lies in the hands of others
yes i am talking about my referee report for my application – totally needed as part of my application . So i asked Hong Kong uncle (well my parents told me its better if they asked for me) and he did agree .. that being before Christmas .
Now, because we cannot help his kid get a place in XX JC, just like my sister , I wonder if he will write a worst report or just refuse to be my point of reference altogether ..
talk about relationships for mutual benefits – to calculate each and everytime his wife comes crying to my mother about stuff, take us for a ride and granted that we are always there to help them (i mean given the friendship betweeen them and my parents, sure .. but we just don’t like our kindness to be taken for a ride , many rides) or try to net off the times – I just feel sad that things have to come down to as such – there is that constant uncertainty that unless there is a benefit involved, otherwise, no talk .
having him as a point of reference makes me feel so jittery … i really wonder what he will say … growls
I mean i really appreciate the opportunity and all that came with it ..
BUT
after getting this mba
i seriously swear i wont allow my own fate to be at the mercy of others . NEVER. NO more pulling of ties .. NO MORE i am so done and over with it
Enough having to do things that seem like i have to suck up and makes the meaning of it lost in the process. +
I feel so mother stressed with my exams.. I just want it to be over and be able to remember what i have learnt
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