wa ka ra nai

i really dont understand  …
why is it when i try to tell my parents how i really feel about things, it just seems like the message just cannot get across …
these few days has really been very stressful for me .. i am really not able to take the stress , and am not exaggerating, [...]

ありがとう！

マリサさん　と　プロンクスさん、
ほんとおに　ありがとうね！わたしは家族きょせんしゅに　ほんとに　さいいて！
ありがとう！いすもわたしのぷーろーべーとをきかります。
Thank you beaties and yuners for pulling me out and listening to my problems as well..
it has been a shit week and major showdowns..
its over miss yong OVER …
thats it  and its the end of it so move on if you know whats good for you …
*lets out a sigh and breathe
　

heartbeat

as much as i look forward to weekends,
i just wished this one doesnt come at all ….
just wished it just continually inch … but hours just seem to fly by faster than i can even grasp ..
 
please dont take his heartbeat away mr wang lee hong .. as much as you sing it i know [...]

what doesnt kill you makes you stronger

do you ever have those days where you just wish you could just hide in your bed and just take a good sleep and wake up to a fresh new day that all the horrid things that happen yesterday just vanished.. just like a snap of fingers …  the disparities between reality and dreams, ideals [...]

failed from melbourne to singapore

so far, if theres one thing that i cant seem to master .. its the studying of the books and theory tests for driving .. all the way form melbourne to singapore .. one result that is consistent, is FAIL .. 
*takes in a deep breath*
enough said .. i feel quite crushed i don’t have ‘common [...]

enough is enough

Ok.. enough tears and all .. i can’t possibly continue living my life in tears on a daily basis – i will go blind on top of the dead cells on my upper and lower eye lids ..
*BUCK UP BUCK UP*
come on come on (jan 2005)
its all about psyching yourself into it .. [...]

Work Day #2

lost today..
nonetheless at times, i did witness God moving the market in my favour.. but out of greed, just don’t heed..
Saviour He can move the mountaians,
My God is mighty to save.. He is Mighty to saveee
it was a costly slap on the face .. i really do hope i know what i am doing [...]

unemployed: day #6

still unemployed . whats new ..
sometimes having a degree.. not that i want to be all complacent with it.. to some extent it does feel so superficial.. feels like a fluke in receiving that piece of paper.. everybody rides on the prestige that comes along with it .. where you did it, what course you [...]

its hard to say goodbye my love ;p

ok.. so far it has been quite hectic.. and i am sure when the parents are over.. its going to be so much more stressful and worse..
some how, 4 years of living away from home, especially at the prime age that marks the turning points of our lives, some how to ‘live together again’ seems [...]

bleakness

the past few entries has been quite emo kia-ish.. not that i am feeling emo nemo now.. just probably feel as if i am going to die..
well i don’t mean literally die die.. but somehow the flash backs of the past has been quite frequent and swirling about in my head, i just feel as [...]