start of my new hell

tmr marks the start of my new hell …
bye social life, 
bye relaxing days,
i will see you again in 5 years time if you even still exist, 
or if you still matter much to me at that point in time
angry?. i just think the irony of it all, that in studying about chinese women, to criticize their [...]

ain no post-it girl no more

stupid green tofu .. hurry up come back with the mei ren yu!!! then we can all go playyyyyy!!! and you can come and play arcade with me!!! and eat supper inn for me … darn i miss it .. 
i am so tired of being taken for granted .. i am not there to fill [...]

failed from melbourne to singapore

so far, if theres one thing that i cant seem to master .. its the studying of the books and theory tests for driving .. all the way form melbourne to singapore .. one result that is consistent, is FAIL .. 
*takes in a deep breath*
enough said .. i feel quite crushed i don’t have ‘common [...]

I am not the same

I think one thing i cannot stand sometimes about my parents, its that they treat me the same like my siblings..
ok.. maybe treat is not so much the word ..
but like probably sometimes i feel the way that they see me is the same ..
it didnt really matter to me how they saw me.. but [...]

enough is enough

Ok.. enough tears and all .. i can’t possibly continue living my life in tears on a daily basis – i will go blind on top of the dead cells on my upper and lower eye lids ..
*BUCK UP BUCK UP*
come on come on (jan 2005)
its all about psyching yourself into it .. [...]

training day #2

today was my second day of training again
and sometimes i wonder, am i really too complacent? or have i became more of an elitist..
this current job.. it drew me in because i get to help charities, and also at the same time, be able to  brush up on my own oral skills..
but conversely, sometimes i [...]

greatttttt… just greaattt

they ate my sasimi.. just to make things even better man…
SEE… i just hate all my bros friends..
MY SASHIMI ..  my yummy salmon sashimi that my mum bought for ME from isetan is now swimming in the stomaches of ingrats and free loaders ….
GRRRRRRRRRrr…..

shut out all the racket

hmm.. maybe the reality of not going back is sinking in even more, its just making me grumpier as a person.. maybe i am unconsciously wanting to go back and just lead life at my own pace.. without any impeding pressure
adding on to the fact that the bro’s friends all climbed over and making so [...]

unemployed: day #6

still unemployed . whats new ..
sometimes having a degree.. not that i want to be all complacent with it.. to some extent it does feel so superficial.. feels like a fluke in receiving that piece of paper.. everybody rides on the prestige that comes along with it .. where you did it, what course you [...]

let it slide

1 more week to officially mark the end of my undergrad days..
sound so old saying it,
but still young in then world..
and technically not 20 yet until the 16th..[now i am finally grateful to be born late in the year]yes yes.. thats another thing in itself
somehow you think something big is going to happen because BOOm, [...]