thankfully i am/wasnt in the mood for any celebration ..

with such a shit like this that happen,

i also dont have any mood to do anything …

my lao beng uncle fell off the construction site on work.. 2 stories high  and is now in the hospital vomitting blood … and previously they just sent him to the “medical stand” at the contruction site and deduced that hes alright because there is no signs of bleeding .. SERIOUSLY WTH are they thinking … thankfully mum called in time to go to the hospital to do X ray ..
hope things get better that side… just when reconciliations are taking place .. but nonetheless God i am know you work in many ways that we cannot understand.. please give the family strength to get through this ..

i guess i will be spending the birthday with hospital visits or something ..
not complaining in anyways
please help me keep him in prayers
that can be a nice present to have this lao beng uncle back that brought us so much laughter with his charisma and randomness thanks

jean beans if you are reading this,

hahaha.. for the moment i cannot think of a bigger shit that would have happened .. but all this shit that happens always happen all at one shot.. i wonder whats being lined up for me next ..

no need no celebration, elaborate dinners or what nots

i dont mean to offend anybody

maybe its just a birthday pms

but i dont need any birthday presents or celebrations

i honestly from the bottom of my heart i cannot be bothered to celebrate it

it should just pass like a normal day, everyone just doing their normal things

and maybe i am just weird

or maybe the nature of my job that furthermore makes me more secluded … not that i am complaining.. some how inside of me does enjoy and appreciate it .. dealing with numbers is always more straight forward and less demanding than dealing with people …

i am used to doing things alone and do enjoy it that way.. doesnt bother me if i walk around alone aimlessly i like it ..

or take on self exploring trips that may be a joke in your face butt of jokes of conversations but i really dont give a shit what you think

and maybe with the upcoming pms

i am better left alone ..

so thanks to those who try to plan and arrange things

forcing me into it will make the whole atmosphere even worst and i will have the blackest face on this earth i wont appreciate it and many more unwanted drama that arises with misunderstandings that boil up and whatever …

i really really dont see a need to celebrate anything

thanks but no thanks

this can be a birthday present for me

everyone around me seems to think that the economy is picking up … or rather it seems like its showing signs of recovery and all …

but i really beg to differ … each time i read the news, i remind myself what i witnessed .. and some how as termed in the current week issue of Time magazine that ‘main street and wall street is not able to see eye to eye’

somehow.. how can all the problems that came from a build up over the years just resolve in 1 year? how is that ever possible?

how is it possible that things can be better when the guys at wall street still continue in their system in drawing high pays and overspending … and in fact not even knowing shit about how the economy really runs ..  taking tax payers money -through government funds- … losses take some more.. bailout bailout..  gains just contribute to their bonus …i guess the system seems to work for the rich – rich getting richer, poor getting poorer .. middle class oddly sticking out either becoming poorer or richer …what is our world coming to? are we all so greed focus and not learn from the crash last year … and not realising that our greed and the failure of a capitalist system that completely facilitates this .. is going to bring about our own doom …

it is really appalling.. and scary i think the direction to which we are heading towards .. unless there is a revolution.. a change in the structure of this system.. otherwise..  i really cant imagine … adding on to this the myth of meritocracy ..

human nature that we are all selfish beings on this earth.. its always the case of  i guess it depends on which side of the situation are you at …

but to some extent i guess its good everyone thinks its getting better … i just hope we all dont go into a state of deflation.. that would be the worst.. like how japan has been since decades agoo … goshh… that would really be quite a hard psychological fair to overcome …

oh wells.. just my thoughts on the economy.. hahaa i also dont really think i am in a position to comment much but oh wells… i hope i manage to find an organization to work with during christmas or something .. ;p

have a great weekend ahead!

wells.. i got quite sian of studying..

and guess who came to visit ….

my very first attempt at drawing nino ahaha i hope its not too shabby and i couldnt find my 6b pencil so.. i cannot really shade it darkk… BAhhsss… but oh wellisss

enjoy!!!  i edit more along the way  3 hours … wheee

till then

have a great day aheadd!!!!

today was a very interesting day i would say ….

i represented my company and went to shenton way!!!! wheeee…. what a country bumpkin.. my memories of shenton way was only waiting for my parents at hitachi towers at the burger king downstairs .. until they finished work at the exchange then we would all trudge home together

today going there myself to represent our small company was really really one good experience.. ahhaa.. its like really a fish going out to the ocean to explore to see the different types of fishes and breeds around… its really interesting!! subarashi i would say and say .. i felt so WAHHHhhhhh all that i ever imagined the coporate conferences and functions to be.. I AM ACTUALLY going in onee of itt!!! wow!!!! like participating in one of it …

@ the conference i really wanted to ask trading related questions.. but i think i was the youngest around and was quite terrified of asking a stupid question .. and also i dont think they would really take me seriously .. so .. ahhahaa.. seems really really interesting at least i get to see people around that are doing the same thing as me .. interesting really interesting …

Thank God for today that i hit another monthly record.. and thank you for today that i am able to enjoy and benefit from the successes of my parents..

before i begin my ramblings, let me just do a quick be-lated re-cap and shout out to two of my important october friends who has just turned 22!!!

Beaties Happy Beat-day I hope you enjoyed everything that was planned for you… hahahaa.. and especially at Minds cafe all the shit games that was introduced to us at exorbitant prices … but nonetheless, i had many much fun and i hope you did have a spectacular memorable birthday Thank God for you for not only to pig-out sessions… and to  listening to all my ramblings and complaints even from the most minor issues in life ..

to my jean beans and i just realised we dont seem to have a recent picture together!! *tragics … i find facebook cannot seem to find it .. hmmss…  so i guess we just have to settle for this one when we were all cam whoring at the car park after chomp chomp .. hahaha…

Thank you very much for being such a blessing in my life! words cannot express my thanks and gratefulness towards your prayers over me and my family .. Thank you for always caring for me and I pray that God will grant the desires of your heart, and that you will mature to be even more fantastic than you already are!!! Thank God for you in my life  I look forward meeting you again very soon!

been so tired goodness.. and weekends seems to slip so fast away… before you can really “rest” its really time to go back and work again … its pretty scary … and no time to meet up too much…  goshh.. really exhausting.. but i am ‘relived’ in some ways.. i really thank God for my Melbourne break .. if not.. i think i really really would have gone crazy .. now i know i have a goal to head towards.. well.. kind of a direction that i want my life to be .. and i am really thankful for that period of uncertainty looking back now.. and Thank you all for your support and ears and advices in what i should do …  know i think i am more or less sure of what i am doing..

Thank God for today.. they were talking about Joy .. and thinking back .. the most joyous thing so far this year was not only my dad and his miraculous surgery and recovery as well, but also the only thing that came to my mind was the miracle with jan that was just pure awesomeness and it was just really a great joy from my part and really really … if i could express it in japanese, it would be 素晴らし（subarashi）and スゴい (sugoii) times 10 …

so looking forward to going to JAPAN!!! but its going to be quite crazy with 3 families.. goodness.. okk God bless us.. and now its jsut the Jap exams my goaaaashhhhhhh…. exams again.. so scaryyyyy… diessssssssss.. okkk till then … and please be informed people, i have a food blog!! no need to purposely publicize .. its just for me to keep on my own record and like what my family and i like .. so no worries free then read .. bored then read.. i will try to be more frequent in my updating

ta then! have a great week ahead ..

previously i talked about how good this maid is .. her redeeming quality that she cooks well and in very very very large amounts despite her looks … and we decided to change to a philipino maid because they could converse in english and made communication much easier….

well, shes starting to give us problems… she told my mother from the start she has memory problems … and my mum still took her in .. fine…

she then on weekly saturday trips to the market, is unable to help my mother in identifying what we are lacking ( my mum makes sure they write down the stuff that we run out on a piece of paper and bring to the market so as not to forget) .. and the best part is, end up, she just stands there and stares into the air, while my mother does all the groceries … my mother will be like ????????? wthh whos the maid now??

ok .. then recently as you all know my dad was in the hospital, and he also wants to see some of the trading quotes.. so we used a normal handphone as a modem to connect to the internet via the laptop .. but in order to do that, the phone and sim card must be 3G we had to sign up for the mobile phone internet plan through M1, get it activated and then use it … So we used my parent’s car hp line to do it since nobody really called that number … We set up everything, tested with the laptop, then left everything into a bag and left it in my mothers car in the event when visiting my dad in the hospital he wants it …..

turned out that my dad didn’t have any use for it, and because he was discharged quite fast, we just didn’t touch the bag and it was sitting in the car all along … then when my mum took the phone sim card to put it back into the car, the thing was invalid.. upon taking it out to examine it, it was not the same sim card that was inside there.. it was a normal old model m1 prepaid card … no 3G no nothing on the sim card.. so i told my mother, asked the friend who is savy with phones, and he also claimed that its a prepaid card … so how did the mysterious sim card end up there???? we still are not able to solve the mystery of it all … but after this i really cannot see my maid the same way …

i confronted her about it, but she only showed me 2 sim cards of hers .. prior to this, my sister had changed her sim cards for her to check if she could use it in singapore.. of which my sister claimed that it was a starhub prepaid card.. the 2 she showed me were not starhubs cards but unknown don’t know what cards …

hence shes is very sneakky ….

early in the morning today, my sis forgot her jacket and started ringing the doorbell and calling the house like crazy … even I WOKE UP TO IT .. and i dont know where the hell she went .. after all, i also couldnt be bothered because i know shes going to be fired anyway ..

something inside me just tells me she has a major problem and shes not as she seems.. hate dealing with these kind of scheming people…. she will prob be happier going backk.. God bless her … and hope she realises how blessed she was working with us – no crying babies or old people to look after .. i just can’t imagine how hard it was looking after us.. and i know my dad … he rarely blows up at maids? but with this one he blew up like almost every other day at her …

oh wells whatever.. i just pray this new maid that comes alone will be good and long lasting … and not give so much problems to my parents and i ..

1) my dad, he got upgraded twice . the first time that he had to go in before they realised that he has to do this major op, he was supposed to be in a single bed room ward… but because there were no space in the single bed room, they upgraded him to a suite

2) apparently, the surgeon that operated on him, was not only a christian, but also had operated on mr nathan our president ever before!! .. so really Thank god he was in the bestest care ever! and they all prayed together with the cardiologist before op and all.. thankfully everything went smoothly and of course thanks to many friends that prayed for my dad

3) after his op, the single room ward again was full .. so they upgraded him to a single room delux – meaning a 2 bedder room, they converted to a single bed room, take away the other bed and just leave the sofa there in place of a bed ..

there are many more that i cannot seem to remember … seeing the mini “restoration” in my mum’s side of the family.. just amazing ..

really makes me realised how blessed my parents are with really good friends around them that really saw them through difficult times .. .. and how really.. hahaha.. am also glad for my family no matter how much i complain about them .. but oh noes.. here goes my dad with his nagging againnnnnn … ok.. but better now he naggs than last time that he cannot nagg ..

thank you God .. we cannot take for granted these small blessings in life ..

sleeping past 2 am everyday is just no joke at all…

AT ALLlllllllll times 10 ..

and because i have been so preoccupied with juggling my work, dad’s work and as well as shuffling between the office and home and hospital,

my jap class is totally neglected… i din get a chance to say bye to my jap friend that was discontinuing the class but hiyss… i wonder how i am going to keep up with all these ..

GOD PLEASE GIVE ME MORE TIME!!! esp time that i rest, if i sleep e.g at 10, can you just freeze the time to be 10pm until i wake up so that i can have more timeee?????

ok asking for the impossible ..

have a great week aheadd!!

Thank you one and all for your prayer towards my dad ..
his operation went smoothly and hes in ICU now.. hopefully by tmr they can remove some of the tubes on him – he currently has 3-4 tubes being stuck onto his body .. thankfully his lungs are functioning well after detaching him from the breathing machine ( they had to “shut down” his body for the triple bypass .. then just put him on a breathing machine) and yup then he can talk ..

today he tried to talk but the nurse put a wet gauze on his lips so he cannot talk …

no i am just kidding.. they did that to ensure his lips were moist .. and maybe partly to prevent him from talking otherwise it will strain his lungs…

i think his style of clothes has to change.. he cannot be his usual half bare naked kinda style.. my mum said he cannot reveal his “sexy ex-V shaped chest” because of the scars this surgery will inflict on him .. his scars starts from his left arm, another from the leg upwards, and of course the chest cos they had to saw open his ribcage to take out the lungs and heart …

its a new lease of life for us all ..i really do hope he does learn from this time around …
nonetheless am very relived that everything went well and that finally everyone can somewhat sleep in peace

p.s. now because i have to cover my dad’s work, i will be working from night onwards .. i dont have a fixed ending time.. just like today i ended at 2.30 am around there.. so if i am on msn online and i do not reply, it prob means i am working .. so really sorry about it!!! just pop me a message and i will try to get back to you all …

anyhows, have a healthy week ahead of you stay healthy and be blessed